I have a long run workout tomorrow and I’m excited about it. I’m also nervous, scared and like 12 other feelings. 6:44 pace is now considered marathon pace. 6:44 pace used to be inconceivable – it was too hard. Anything under 7:00 was hard. It’s still hard, it’s just less hard.
I haven’t really posted much on social because I don’t really know what to say and if I have nothing useful to say, why say anything? I ran this morning. Without looking I don’t know how many miles it was or what the exact pace was, I just know it was 55 minutes and it was rainy. Does anyone really care to see a picture of me smiling with the pace I ran superimposed onto it?
I also don’t really care what the pace of my everyday runs is. I care about the hard stuff. The stuff that’s going to make me stronger and capable of running my sub 3:00 marathon. That’s tomorrow, which is of course, the workout I am already worried about.
The holidays put me in this weird type of funk that I don’t know if I really get out of until spring. My daughter turns 9 this month, which is super fun, but I just realized that I need to figure out a cake for her. In the mess of the holidays and New Year I haven’t ordered one yet (I am NOT a Pinterest mom who is capable of making cakes for her kids). She’s the type of girl who doesn’t really care about those sorts of things, but I do. I’m currently searching my brain to figure out what exactly she would want on a cake and I am drawing a blank. I think she’d just be happy with lots of teal frosting flowers. Teal is her favorite color, my little Kater girl. Frosting is also her favorite part of cake, just like me. I don’t care about anything but the frosting.
This isn’t at all a good transition from the paragraph above, but in looking back at 2019 there isn’t really a reason I should feel so “funky”. It ended well for me. My running is going great and I feel good. I almost feel guilty for feeling good. I do hope that this continues and that I can stay healthy for London. I’m so excited to run another marathon and visit another place. Germany was the first time I had ever been overseas and it was such an awesome experience.
Maybe once I get through tomorrow’s run I’ll feel more like myself again. It’s exciting to do work at goal pace – it builds confidence for the actual race.
114 more days to build fitness. A lot can happen in that amount of time. I’m looking forward to see what 2020 has in store for me!
Alissa Kolarik 